I don't think he's going to demand anything. I think he's going to shove me out.
[ But that's likely a good thing, as far as Hawke's concerned. ]
And he's not 'barely trying'. He's trying. But he's... How do I put this? He's like a fledgling vampire, Hawke. He has no guidance, no control, and he's lost and scrambling around and picking fights with people he shouldn't be. And I get that. I get that a lot more than people understand.
[ It's not fair for her to be frustrated at his lack of control. And she's not, not really. But she also knows some of the struggle he's working through and she wishes he might hear her more. ]
Did I tell you? I was in one of the nightmares he watches. His old friend Georgie. She told me I was better off just...backing away. Even with her, I didn't know what to say. I feel like I'm enabling him, sometimes.
[This would all be a lot easier if Jon wasn't a pissy little wanker all the time. But alas.
Hearing Ava describe Jon like a fledgling vampire suddenly makes a lot of sense to him. It explains why she's willing to put herself out so much for someone who seems more often than not to be a jerk to her. He thinks, perhaps, she sees much of herself in him-- someone granted strange powers and left to figure them out all alone.
Of course she wants to help. And he does too... somehow.]
Yes. Think it over.
I'm-- sorry to bring you down like this. But it's been on my mind. I won't talk about it any longer if you don't want me to.
No, I... Look, you're my friend, Hawke. Your opinion means a lot to me and I know you're telling me this because you care. I know you're not just saying this to hurt me.
[ And Hawke wants to help Jon, if he can, and that goes a long way towards making her feel like this isn't just a ploy to get her away from Jon. This is Hawke genuinely concerned. And it's been a long time since feeling like she could have that with anyone.
She pauses, checking her phone. ]
Oh. He's...texting me right now, actually. Look, I'll let you go. I'll see you later when you come home?
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Date: 2019-08-29 01:01 am (UTC)[Well. That's ascribing a nasty action to Jon that he hasn't actually done. Hawke decides not to finish that sentence.]
Anyway. Please just think about it, okay? It's not my decision. And it isn't his, either.
But I don't feel good about it. That's all I wanted to say.
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Date: 2019-08-29 02:10 am (UTC)[ But that's likely a good thing, as far as Hawke's concerned. ]
And he's not 'barely trying'. He's trying. But he's... How do I put this? He's like a fledgling vampire, Hawke. He has no guidance, no control, and he's lost and scrambling around and picking fights with people he shouldn't be. And I get that. I get that a lot more than people understand.
[ It's not fair for her to be frustrated at his lack of control. And she's not, not really. But she also knows some of the struggle he's working through and she wishes he might hear her more. ]
Did I tell you? I was in one of the nightmares he watches. His old friend Georgie. She told me I was better off just...backing away. Even with her, I didn't know what to say. I feel like I'm enabling him, sometimes.
I just need to think it over.
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Date: 2019-08-29 03:11 pm (UTC)Hearing Ava describe Jon like a fledgling vampire suddenly makes a lot of sense to him. It explains why she's willing to put herself out so much for someone who seems more often than not to be a jerk to her. He thinks, perhaps, she sees much of herself in him-- someone granted strange powers and left to figure them out all alone.
Of course she wants to help. And he does too... somehow.]
Yes. Think it over.
I'm-- sorry to bring you down like this. But it's been on my mind. I won't talk about it any longer if you don't want me to.
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Date: 2019-08-30 04:45 am (UTC)[ And Hawke wants to help Jon, if he can, and that goes a long way towards making her feel like this isn't just a ploy to get her away from Jon. This is Hawke genuinely concerned. And it's been a long time since feeling like she could have that with anyone.
She pauses, checking her phone. ]
Oh. He's...texting me right now, actually. Look, I'll let you go. I'll see you later when you come home?