[ There it is. Ava sighs to herself, trying to figure out where to even start. ]
Yeah. Vampires. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. Very few people know. Fewer still got the information out of me willingly. It’s supposed to be a secret and violating that would mean immediate death for me, for you, for everyone you know and may have told.
When I first met you, when I first got here, I was terrified of people finding out. I still am. I was scared you’d hate me and think I was a monster.
It’d have been justified. I AM a monster. I don’t have illusions about that. But I was keeping it secret to keep you and others safe. I’m still keeping it a secret. It’s always been from home, though. I didn’t get it here.
[ It hurts to type it out but he needs to know the full truth. ]
I’m sorry. I know it’s a lot.
I’m sorry I scared you. That’s what happens when people find out. I didn’t want you to be afraid of me.
It's just a little hard to think that you've been a vampire the whole time. It almost seems funny to type. I guess I've run into a handful of things I didn't think were real here. So it's not as crazy as it would've been a few months ago.
You don't seem different. Like from a human. You don't seem like a monster. At all. And. Maybe it's stupid of me, but I don't feel scared of you. What you did was pretty alarming. But I still don't feel scared of you. Should I?
I'd prefer it if you don't. But if you do, that's your choice.
[ She still isn't convinced that someone won't try to have her murdered, really. Rafa insists it's not like that but she really does think he's being too nice about the political climate. ]
I don't have an excuse for you. That place was right for me, the violence and the blood. I'd been in there a long time and had done a lot of things that I had to do in order to survive. So 'alarming' is putting it kind of nicely.
I'd tell you that you should be afraid of me on principle. But I'm not going to hurt you. I would never, not if I was in my right mind, not if this city would leave me alone.
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Date: 2019-08-11 10:49 pm (UTC)Yeah. Vampires. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. Very few people know. Fewer still got the information out of me willingly. It’s supposed to be a secret and violating that would mean immediate death for me, for you, for everyone you know and may have told.
When I first met you, when I first got here, I was terrified of people finding out. I still am. I was scared you’d hate me and think I was a monster.
It’d have been justified. I AM a monster. I don’t have illusions about that. But I was keeping it secret to keep you and others safe. I’m still keeping it a secret. It’s always been from home, though. I didn’t get it here.
[ It hurts to type it out but he needs to know the full truth. ]
I’m sorry. I know it’s a lot.
I’m sorry I scared you. That’s what happens when people find out. I didn’t want you to be afraid of me.
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Date: 2019-08-17 07:03 pm (UTC)It's just a little hard to think that you've been a vampire the whole time. It almost seems funny to type. I guess I've run into a handful of things I didn't think were real here. So it's not as crazy as it would've been a few months ago.
You don't seem different. Like from a human. You don't seem like a monster. At all. And. Maybe it's stupid of me, but I don't feel scared of you. What you did was pretty alarming. But I still don't feel scared of you. Should I?
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Date: 2019-08-17 10:31 pm (UTC)[ She still isn't convinced that someone won't try to have her murdered, really. Rafa insists it's not like that but she really does think he's being too nice about the political climate. ]
I don't have an excuse for you. That place was right for me, the violence and the blood. I'd been in there a long time and had done a lot of things that I had to do in order to survive. So 'alarming' is putting it kind of nicely.
I'd tell you that you should be afraid of me on principle. But I'm not going to hurt you. I would never, not if I was in my right mind, not if this city would leave me alone.