Indeed I am; sometimes a blessing, sometimes a curse.
[ Anya only hums a "hm-hmm" at Ava's mention of not being able to see Jon. They go back further than her, surely they have their own shit to sift through. Much as Anya would like to know, sometimes you have to let people deal with their own stuff.
Which doesn't make her feel any less weird about what she wants to talk about. ]
Oh, still trying to set in. I got a Sub, but she's a minor and while I'll kill anyone that looks her wrong, it doesn't really help me in some... matters...
[ Sex matters. ]
I actually talked to Jon about it, out of all people. [ Anya snorts. Really though, she has to start picking her friends better. ] It went as well as you can imagine.
How do you deal with it? I could use some pointers... and maybe, I don't know, we can find some way of mutually help us in that matter. If you want.
[ Awkward. Not that she had gotten a contract with Hawke for those reasons but it makes it easier that he's not a minor or anything. She can't imagine how weird that must be, honestly. Why would Duplicity bring a minor in, anyway?
But then she makes a sound that might be a laugh. ]
You talked to Jon about sex? He's not interested in it, I don't think. He just goes to those hookup hotels and watches people who have a voyeurism kink. I think LIEs allows that as his quota. Sounds like he gets out of it pretty easily.
[ Ass.
There's a pause. Slowly, Ava sighs. ]
I... I haven't really been dealing with it. Something...happened the first month I was here. And then this past month I...kind of just made do. I'm barely making quota. The guy who's my Dominant has told me that he won't let me go to that rehab center but I hate...putting it all on him.
[ And Ava doesn't trust enough people to allow herself to be vulnerable like that. ]
The people here haven't been too bad about it. They were nice. Surprisingly.
[ If only Tinya were older, Anya would take it upon herself to help her with the quota, but even in a place like this she can't bring herself to go against certain principles.
Anya outright laughs her ass off at Ava's mention of Jon. ]
We talked about quotas and how he is, yeah, kind of a voyeur enabler. Sounds like, right? But I think he hates it all the same. Wuss.
[ This time Anya doesn't make a sound. Ava is dropping little clues now and then, but there's something else behind. And maybe even a thing that goes way back to her world, who knows. ]
He sounds like a pretty cool dude, alright.
And actually yeah, at least some of the people I've talked to seem to have a pretty reasonable opinion. Who knew.
Well... I haven't really done it with anyone here yet. [ Save the guy she was forced to kill to get the words to go away, but shhh. ] I totally won't judge you if it's not how you swing, but if you want to help me with the quota, and help yourself I guess...
[ While Anya has never been shy about sex, she has never been on a schedule. She can be pretty liberal about it, but she's always had it at her own pace and with the people she wanted. This? This puts her on a weird spot. ]
I would feel a lot safer with someone that knows exactly how it goes when you're all about Vitae.
And I get that, yeah, but you're...also not her mom, Anya. I talked with her for a bit. She seems really resourceful.
[ But a fifteen year old shouldn't really be having to worry about something like quota. Ugh. ]
Yeah, I think he hates it. He's just doing it because it's necessary. So I get it. And Hawke is really cool. You should talk to him. I feel like he needs more friends, especially the sorts of friends that can take care of themselves.
[ And Hawke really just needs people who are going to be kind and nice to him. People who are going to treat him well for all of the things he does for others. It can't just be her. ]
Wait. You... Shit, Anya. You're going to cut it close if you don't get a move on. [ Oh my god, Ava, chill. ] ...Look. I-- I'll be honest. I've been with a woman before and I liked it. I've never, like, taken it further than that. But I'm not put off, okay?
[ Well. No more than most vampires are, at least. ]
I'm fine to help you. I don't want you shoved off to that fucking place. I hear horror stories about it.
[ She needs to learn to care a little less, in all fairness. ]
I'll bother him then! Say you sent me his way. Anyone you trust enough to make a contract with has to at least be a decent person. I just hope he has a sense of humor.
[ Anya grunts. ] I know, I know. I just don't like it when it's all forced like, okay? Even as a vampire I've had sex, and it's fine, but it's always been on my own terms and on my own times.
[ She sighs at all. Well, she at least didn't freak Ava out. ]
Trust me, I don't want to end there at all either.
...thanks. This is extremely embarrassing, by the way. Usually I would take you out and woo you with my wordly expertise. Actually, I would feel better if we can at least have a nice night out before, err, getting down to business.
[ Wine and dine? It sounds incredibly stupid in Anya's head, but how else can she convey her seriousness about this all? ]
Oh, don't worry, Hawke's got enough humor for all of us sticks in the mud. Trust me.
[ It's said fondly, in all fairness. Hawke is a much better person than she is or ever will be. She wants him to be happy and to be safe...even if that means not being around her. ]
Yeah, I get you. It's... It's awkward.
[ Wait, hold on-- ]
Uh, I... I didn't think you were going to actually, um. [ Well. ] You know what? Yeah. Let's... Let's go out. It'll be fun. And it'll be better than just starting off on a weird foot.
[ And she's curious to see what kind of people has Ava surrounded herself with. Jon feels like an outlier (sorry Jon), but others? Others might be interesting. ]
We've had enough awkwardness already, right? And I don't remember the last time someone actually tried to at least pretend it wasn't only about the sex. Which is not, mind you. I think it might be a good time to talk and compare notes.
[ Anya considers the question for a moment. ]
I don't know. You've been here for longer, where would you like to take me? Or where haven't you been yet?
Yeah, I guess so. That's a good point. It'll be fine.
[ She guesses they're friends? It's weird. There's nothing to call Anya, even if she isn't sure she's a friend...but it feels wrong to say she isn't a friend. It's just complicated. Ava likes her well enough, and doing this doesn't feel expressly awkward. Just different.
Like knowing someone too much and then asking to take them to dinner. ]
I mean, I wasn't really able to eat normal food until about a month ago. I'm still getting used to that again. But we should find somewhere to eat that'll be...better for us.
There's a dive bar in the Up we can go to. I've snacked once there. The people there are smart, usually healthy.
So you can? That's pretty cool. Is it a Duplicity thing? Actually, I guess I forgot to tell you, but I had some mages do some work on me. Basically I can eat and drink, but it doesn't really do anything for me. No nourishment, no nothing. Actually it sort of dissolves the moment I swallow, but at least I can still taste them.
[ It's not the same, but it's something. ]
I mean, getting actual blood is always preferred, specially if I know I won't freak out my date for the night.
No. I...got this thing, from doing a few tests. It's a necklace. If I feed it blood, I can get a few hours in the sun or I can eat a little bit. But it's not enough, you know? I still need to feed on people. It's nice, sometimes, though to just...share a meal with someone. To feel normal.
[ It's...something. That's all she can say. ]
I know that some people at those clubs are into it. One of the guys I fed on there wanted me to do it again and he said I wasn't the first, so. He knew. Even if I was tempted to mindwipe him.
[ Truth is, Anya is pretty sure that if she were to feel that and then lose it again, she would probably end up feeling even worse. ]
Sounds like an alright place then. Can't really say much about the people... but I guess it's just what one would expect of this place. Okay then, meet you there?
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Date: 2019-08-06 01:46 am (UTC)Hey. What's up?
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Date: 2019-08-08 03:36 pm (UTC)[ Sarcasm is easier, sarcasm comes naturally to her. ]
You? Got your hands full with certain Archivist?
[ She'll get to the point in a moment, really! ]
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Date: 2019-08-09 03:35 pm (UTC)[ The quip earns her a sigh. ]
I did. I...can't see him right now, actually. [ ANYWAY. ] What's going on with you?
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Date: 2019-08-09 04:34 pm (UTC)[ Anya only hums a "hm-hmm" at Ava's mention of not being able to see Jon. They go back further than her, surely they have their own shit to sift through. Much as Anya would like to know, sometimes you have to let people deal with their own stuff.
Which doesn't make her feel any less weird about what she wants to talk about. ]
Oh, still trying to set in. I got a Sub, but she's a minor and while I'll kill anyone that looks her wrong, it doesn't really help me in some... matters...
[ Sex matters. ]
I actually talked to Jon about it, out of all people. [ Anya snorts. Really though, she has to start picking her friends better. ] It went as well as you can imagine.
How do you deal with it? I could use some pointers... and maybe, I don't know, we can find some way of mutually help us in that matter. If you want.
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Date: 2019-08-09 05:50 pm (UTC)[ Awkward. Not that she had gotten a contract with Hawke for those reasons but it makes it easier that he's not a minor or anything. She can't imagine how weird that must be, honestly. Why would Duplicity bring a minor in, anyway?
But then she makes a sound that might be a laugh. ]
You talked to Jon about sex? He's not interested in it, I don't think. He just goes to those hookup hotels and watches people who have a voyeurism kink. I think LIEs allows that as his quota. Sounds like he gets out of it pretty easily.
[ Ass.
There's a pause. Slowly, Ava sighs. ]
I... I haven't really been dealing with it. Something...happened the first month I was here. And then this past month I...kind of just made do. I'm barely making quota. The guy who's my Dominant has told me that he won't let me go to that rehab center but I hate...putting it all on him.
[ And Ava doesn't trust enough people to allow herself to be vulnerable like that. ]
The people here haven't been too bad about it. They were nice. Surprisingly.
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Date: 2019-08-09 06:43 pm (UTC)[ If only Tinya were older, Anya would take it upon herself to help her with the quota, but even in a place like this she can't bring herself to go against certain principles.
Anya outright laughs her ass off at Ava's mention of Jon. ]
We talked about quotas and how he is, yeah, kind of a voyeur enabler. Sounds like, right? But I think he hates it all the same. Wuss.
[ This time Anya doesn't make a sound. Ava is dropping little clues now and then, but there's something else behind. And maybe even a thing that goes way back to her world, who knows. ]
He sounds like a pretty cool dude, alright.
And actually yeah, at least some of the people I've talked to seem to have a pretty reasonable opinion. Who knew.
Well... I haven't really done it with anyone here yet. [ Save the guy she was forced to kill to get the words to go away, but shhh. ] I totally won't judge you if it's not how you swing, but if you want to help me with the quota, and help yourself I guess...
[ While Anya has never been shy about sex, she has never been on a schedule. She can be pretty liberal about it, but she's always had it at her own pace and with the people she wanted. This? This puts her on a weird spot. ]
I would feel a lot safer with someone that knows exactly how it goes when you're all about Vitae.
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Date: 2019-08-09 07:40 pm (UTC)[ But a fifteen year old shouldn't really be having to worry about something like quota. Ugh. ]
Yeah, I think he hates it. He's just doing it because it's necessary. So I get it. And Hawke is really cool. You should talk to him. I feel like he needs more friends, especially the sorts of friends that can take care of themselves.
[ And Hawke really just needs people who are going to be kind and nice to him. People who are going to treat him well for all of the things he does for others. It can't just be her. ]
Wait. You... Shit, Anya. You're going to cut it close if you don't get a move on. [ Oh my god, Ava, chill. ] ...Look. I-- I'll be honest. I've been with a woman before and I liked it. I've never, like, taken it further than that. But I'm not put off, okay?
[ Well. No more than most vampires are, at least. ]
I'm fine to help you. I don't want you shoved off to that fucking place. I hear horror stories about it.
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Date: 2019-08-09 08:14 pm (UTC)[ She needs to learn to care a little less, in all fairness. ]
I'll bother him then! Say you sent me his way. Anyone you trust enough to make a contract with has to at least be a decent person. I just hope he has a sense of humor.
[ Anya grunts. ] I know, I know. I just don't like it when it's all forced like, okay? Even as a vampire I've had sex, and it's fine, but it's always been on my own terms and on my own times.
[ She sighs at all. Well, she at least didn't freak Ava out. ]
Trust me, I don't want to end there at all either.
...thanks. This is extremely embarrassing, by the way. Usually I would take you out and woo you with my wordly expertise. Actually, I would feel better if we can at least have a nice night out before, err, getting down to business.
[ Wine and dine? It sounds incredibly stupid in Anya's head, but how else can she convey her seriousness about this all? ]
Or if you'd rather we keep cut the chase...
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Date: 2019-08-09 09:53 pm (UTC)[ It's said fondly, in all fairness. Hawke is a much better person than she is or ever will be. She wants him to be happy and to be safe...even if that means not being around her. ]
Yeah, I get you. It's... It's awkward.
[ Wait, hold on-- ]
Uh, I... I didn't think you were going to actually, um. [ Well. ] You know what? Yeah. Let's... Let's go out. It'll be fun. And it'll be better than just starting off on a weird foot.
Anywhere you wanna go in particular?
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Date: 2019-08-09 10:29 pm (UTC)[ And she's curious to see what kind of people has Ava surrounded herself with. Jon feels like an outlier (sorry Jon), but others? Others might be interesting. ]
We've had enough awkwardness already, right? And I don't remember the last time someone actually tried to at least pretend it wasn't only about the sex. Which is not, mind you. I think it might be a good time to talk and compare notes.
[ Anya considers the question for a moment. ]
I don't know. You've been here for longer, where would you like to take me? Or where haven't you been yet?
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Date: 2019-08-10 12:55 am (UTC)[ She guesses they're friends? It's weird. There's nothing to call Anya, even if she isn't sure she's a friend...but it feels wrong to say she isn't a friend. It's just complicated. Ava likes her well enough, and doing this doesn't feel expressly awkward. Just different.
Like knowing someone too much and then asking to take them to dinner. ]
I mean, I wasn't really able to eat normal food until about a month ago. I'm still getting used to that again. But we should find somewhere to eat that'll be...better for us.
There's a dive bar in the Up we can go to. I've snacked once there. The people there are smart, usually healthy.
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Date: 2019-08-10 05:25 pm (UTC)[ It's not the same, but it's something. ]
I mean, getting actual blood is always preferred, specially if I know I won't freak out my date for the night.
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Date: 2019-08-11 02:14 am (UTC)[ It's...something. That's all she can say. ]
I know that some people at those clubs are into it. One of the guys I fed on there wanted me to do it again and he said I wasn't the first, so. He knew. Even if I was tempted to mindwipe him.
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Date: 2019-08-12 03:18 pm (UTC)[ Truth is, Anya is pretty sure that if she were to feel that and then lose it again, she would probably end up feeling even worse. ]
Sounds like an alright place then. Can't really say much about the people... but I guess it's just what one would expect of this place. Okay then, meet you there?
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Date: 2019-09-14 08:08 pm (UTC)[ For exactly the same reasons Anya's imagining. ]
Yeah, totally. We can meet there. I'll see you soon.