[ Maybe there was a point to those things? Hawke wants to insist he's dangerous and he is but not for the same reasons. He's a powerful mage. She's a bloodsucker. She's a monster. One wrong wake up in the morning could get her draining him dry. It's not fair to him.
Ava frowns deeply. ]
You aren't dumb, Hawke. You act like you are and you might try to convince people you are, but you're not.
[ And she knows better. But this...isn't fully about her. Hawke's wearing that smile that makes her heart melt, and she frowns again, sighing, putting her arms around him to hug him. ]
I just don't want you to get hurt. You're all I have.
[She's gotten to the point where she can see through him that easily. Is it any wonder he's catching feelings for her?
He holds her tight against him, stroking her hair with his palm.]
So are you.
I can't... promise anything. Neither can you. That's just the way this blighted place works. So I won't ask you for anything you can't give.
I can promise that I'll do whatever I can to stay safe. To stay with you, no matter what happens. And whatever you want to offer me... I'll take it. I just want to stay with you.
[ Ava allows him to fold his arms around her and she leans into his touch, into his warmth, and rests her head on his shoulder. She breathes him in with a breath she needn't take, closing her eyes for a moment. Then, quietly: ]
I'll do whatever is necessary to keep you safe...and to keep myself out of trouble. [ Mostly. ] And I won't leave you. Not 'til long after my second death, if it comes to it.
[That's more than he expected he'd get from her. He was quite honestly expecting a brush-off. It would have hurt as bad as anything ever has hurt him, but he'd understand where it was coming from and why.
Instead, she promises to stay with him. She can no doubt feel the way his breath hitches, and his arms tighten around her.]
Thank you. And neither am I. I'll be right here with you, as long as I possibly can.
Not because of Hawke. Hawke is being truthful, is trying his best. But she doesn't believe that he'll be able to stay with her. She supposes she shouldn't expect it to be a long time...but any time is better than none. Ava nods, turns, and kisses his cheek. ]
I will be too. And... I'm sorry I always say I worry. Or that I think you're better off not being near me. I'll try not to say it.
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Ava frowns deeply. ]
You aren't dumb, Hawke. You act like you are and you might try to convince people you are, but you're not.
[ And she knows better. But this...isn't fully about her. Hawke's wearing that smile that makes her heart melt, and she frowns again, sighing, putting her arms around him to hug him. ]
I just don't want you to get hurt. You're all I have.
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[She's gotten to the point where she can see through him that easily. Is it any wonder he's catching feelings for her?
He holds her tight against him, stroking her hair with his palm.]
So are you.
I can't... promise anything. Neither can you. That's just the way this blighted place works. So I won't ask you for anything you can't give.
I can promise that I'll do whatever I can to stay safe. To stay with you, no matter what happens. And whatever you want to offer me... I'll take it. I just want to stay with you.
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I'll do whatever is necessary to keep you safe...and to keep myself out of trouble. [ Mostly. ] And I won't leave you. Not 'til long after my second death, if it comes to it.
[ Wow, this is a little strong. ]
I'm not going anywhere, Hawke. I've got you.
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Instead, she promises to stay with him. She can no doubt feel the way his breath hitches, and his arms tighten around her.]
Thank you. And neither am I. I'll be right here with you, as long as I possibly can.
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Not because of Hawke. Hawke is being truthful, is trying his best. But she doesn't believe that he'll be able to stay with her. She supposes she shouldn't expect it to be a long time...but any time is better than none. Ava nods, turns, and kisses his cheek. ]
I will be too. And... I'm sorry I always say I worry. Or that I think you're better off not being near me. I'll try not to say it.