[He wants to correct her, to tell her she gave him those. But that's just... more rationalizing, isn't it? Jon holds his proverbial tongue.]
The throwing up blood is supposed to stop me from doing that. You don't owe me those Statements, Ava. Talk to Hawke. Make sure that's actually what you want to do.
Okay, I don't owe you them, but I started a story and I should finish it. If it helps you, I want to give them. I've already lived through these moments, Jon.
I'll talk to Hawke. But you've gotten Statements from people and they haven't been lost to the Beholding, right? Even if I didn't want to be your assistant, you still could get Statements from me and it wouldn't have been an issue, right? The Eye wouldn't have chased me then. I'm not signing my life away but I want to help you. You're my friend.
Lost? No. Targeted for the rest of their lives by a malevolent eldritch fear monster? Yes. Just, I just want you to make these decisions without thinking about what I need. I appreciate it, but Georgie was right. You need to think about what you need, too.
I won't tell you to stop if you give them to me. But just keep that in mind. Okay? You're my friend, too. I don't like hurting you.
Yeah, and that's kind of already happening. So my question is, how is it going to change? I don't know what I need, Jon, but I know I don't want you to shrivel up and die.
I know you don't like hurting me. I don't like you suffering. I'll talk to Hawke.
[She's really doing nothing for his ability to say 'no.']
I don't know. I don't bloody well know how it all works, Ava. I just know that if having one of your Statements is bad, having multiple Statements from you can't be better.
Just... let me know what you decide once you've talked to him. I'm going to go have something to eat.
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The throwing up blood is supposed to stop me from doing that.
You don't owe me those Statements, Ava.
Talk to Hawke.
Make sure that's actually what you want to do.
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If it helps you, I want to give them.
I've already lived through these moments, Jon.
I'll talk to Hawke.
But you've gotten Statements from people and they haven't been lost to the Beholding, right?
Even if I didn't want to be your assistant, you still could get Statements from me and it wouldn't have been an issue, right?
The Eye wouldn't have chased me then.
I'm not signing my life away but I want to help you.
You're my friend.
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Targeted for the rest of their lives by a malevolent eldritch fear monster? Yes.
Just, I just want you to make these decisions without thinking about what I need.
I appreciate it, but Georgie was right.
You need to think about what you need, too.
I won't tell you to stop if you give them to me.
But just keep that in mind.
Okay?
You're my friend, too.
I don't like hurting you.
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So my question is, how is it going to change?
I don't know what I need, Jon, but I know I don't want you to shrivel up and die.
I know you don't like hurting me.
I don't like you suffering.
I'll talk to Hawke.
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I don't know.
I don't bloody well know how it all works, Ava.
I just know that if having one of your Statements is bad, having multiple Statements from you can't be better.
Just... let me know what you decide once you've talked to him.
I'm going to go have something to eat.
[All this talk of Statements...]
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But I'll talk to him and I won't go leaping into things, okay?
I promise.
I'll let you go, then.
Talk to you soon.