I know, lovely. I know. I was the same way. I had friends, who--
[Welp. We're going there.]
I had a friend who was an abomination. I wanted to help him, more than anything. I stayed with him, and I did anything he needed of me. I would have given anything I had to make him be all right. And for a while, he was, but one day...
One day, he slipped. He went too far. I couldn't follow where he wanted me to go. But I got caught up in it anyway. I was already too deep. And it only would have been worse if I'd done any more. I only wanted to save him, but I couldn't. And I couldn't give what I had left to try any longer.
[He goes silent for a long moment. Truly, it's obvious he's ducking specifics, but he's at work in a back room and he doesn't think he has the mental fortitude to confront those things, right now, on the phone.]
At some point... you have to decide what you won't give up to save him. I-- I can't tell you what that is, Ava. But you have to ask if it'll be worth it, if you lose him anyway. Or if you do save him, whether there'll be anything left of you to care.
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Date: 2019-08-28 11:08 pm (UTC)[Welp. We're going there.]
I had a friend who was an abomination. I wanted to help him, more than anything. I stayed with him, and I did anything he needed of me. I would have given anything I had to make him be all right. And for a while, he was, but one day...
One day, he slipped. He went too far. I couldn't follow where he wanted me to go. But I got caught up in it anyway. I was already too deep. And it only would have been worse if I'd done any more. I only wanted to save him, but I couldn't. And I couldn't give what I had left to try any longer.
[He goes silent for a long moment. Truly, it's obvious he's ducking specifics, but he's at work in a back room and he doesn't think he has the mental fortitude to confront those things, right now, on the phone.]
At some point... you have to decide what you won't give up to save him. I-- I can't tell you what that is, Ava. But you have to ask if it'll be worth it, if you lose him anyway. Or if you do save him, whether there'll be anything left of you to care.